Cooking With Cleavage

Before I get the chance to really throw down on here like I’ve planned… it’s been an amazing journey so far being a mama.  I really didn’t know what to expect, and I’m not sure if all women go through this but I feel like my hormones really took me out of my typical mental and emotional element – which resulted in a much different person!

Actually, the first month that I had my son home with me I was basically in a state of awe… it was like honeymooning with him.  I went through different phases of just complete love and exasperation – I even went through a phase where I couldn’t look at him at times because I loved him so much and knew there were other people out there in the world having beautiful babies and not taking care of them, or abusing them in some way.  I would imagine it when I looked at him and it would just break me!!! (Dramatic, I know).

Now I’m at a place where everything seems to be leveling out a bit more, he’s 9 months old – he’s on solids and breast milk at this time so I feel that we’ve built a strong bond with one another but he’s also establishing independence.  I find myself establishing mine again as well, it’s an interesting journey as a mother to know that someone is relying on you for everything in life but also to remember that you are an individual that needs to love yourself, take care of yourself and remember who it is that you are when you look in the mirror.

I try to keep that in mind, and I hope that this journey into my own personal development and love for health really helps me hone in on that again.  It’s the one thing, outside of an insane amount of love, that I really want to share with my son.

So, my original thought for this blog is far from the way I’m going to be starting my first post… but I figure I’d rather just get to it than sit around trying to be a perfectionist about the way that I present myself.

I’ll keep it simple: I’m a woman – I’m in my 20s, I have a 9 month old son, I’m a work at home mother – which means I work full time but I also have my baby full time.  I’m sure all of you other moms out there know + anyone who works from home… this is freaking insane!  I’m not sure why I agreed to that, but that’s another story!

I’m a perfectionist.  Generally speaking, I won’t even start something in my life at this point if I don’t know that I can finish it exactly the way that I like it.  (Trust me when I say, I’m working on this LOL… nobody likes to be this over the top!)  Above all, I love the crap out of my son and all I want to do is better myself as a woman, every single day.

Ultimately, the reason I created this blog was for a creative outlet – and one of my favorite ways to express myself is through food.

Like many other women in the health food industry these days ~ my love and passion for cooking creative, healthy food originally stemmed from an eating disorder that I first battled with in my early teen years.  I don’t believe ED’s are ever really resolved, as it’s unlike other addictions where you can cut yourself off, cold turkey.  Food is something we interact with every day to survive – thus, the need to create a healthy and beautiful relationship with the foods that nourish us.

I hope to share my passion in a way that is relatable to other people, and just connect!  I’m a complicated girl, just like the rest of us (no matter how simple we claim to be) … I live in my imagination, and I like it there!  I want to experience many adventures and share them for years to come.  I hope I can communicate these ideas and adventures well enough to spark some great conversation, and new friendships!

TTFN xoxo – Steph