Before I get the chance to really throw down on here like I’ve planned… it’s been an amazing journey so far being a mama. I really didn’t know what to expect, and I’m not sure if all women go through this but I feel like my hormones really took me out of my typical mental and emotional element – which resulted in a much different person!
Actually, the first month that I had my son home with me I was basically in a state of awe… it was like honeymooning with him. I went through different phases of just complete love and exasperation – I even went through a phase where I couldn’t look at him at times because I loved him so much and knew there were other people out there in the world having beautiful babies and not taking care of them, or abusing them in some way. I would imagine it when I looked at him and it would just break me!!! (Dramatic, I know).
Now I’m at a place where everything seems to be leveling out a bit more, he’s 9 months old – he’s on solids and breast milk at this time so I feel that we’ve built a strong bond with one another but he’s also establishing independence. I find myself establishing mine again as well, it’s an interesting journey as a mother to know that someone is relying on you for everything in life but also to remember that you are an individual that needs to love yourself, take care of yourself and remember who it is that you are when you look in the mirror.
I try to keep that in mind, and I hope that this journey into my own personal development and love for health really helps me hone in on that again. It’s the one thing, outside of an insane amount of love, that I really want to share with my son.
Cooking With Cleavage 